Revelation

I’m resisting writing about the unhappy times and not so glam stuff because I want to look good and also not be reminded by it in black and white… on the other hand, this is a place where I can rant and sometimes realize things when I do spill the beans.

These days, H and I are having difficult times with ZX. From our views, he’s becoming more stubborn, bad tempered and whiny. If things aren’t going his way, he’d whine then cry and throw his tantrums… doesn’t want you to go near to console him and keep on crying… Very often, our patience is really tried. At the point when we lose it (normally not at the same incident), I’d beat his bum or simply ignore him. H is worse, he’d scold very loudly and beat his buttocks hard. Well, what we did only provoke more of his crying. I know this but at that very moment, it can be hard to control our emotions. Ah what an excuse!!

As I look back and try to see things from ZX’s point of view, I can see that he wants to be independent and not be controlled. He’d convey his needs with his baby talk, pointing and body language which sometimes not easy to be interpreted by adults, that add to his frustrations.

So last night and this morning, I went along with him, holding back and just let him be until he’s ready. Guess what… it’s so much easier and without much whining, screams and struggles. He also slept better last night with no nightmares.

It’s really not easy being a parent, much more so being a first-time parent. Teaching and learning is going both ways here, between the parents and the child.

~ MamaBee is guilty as charged.